getting "0" of self Confident =( [BEL]

y im i really nervous when im getting of presentation..

im i stupid? hmppphh

arghhH! y cant i did like everybody did.. =(

WHHHHYYYYy!!!!??!!!

i did my prepare presentation many times..

and i bring my presentation note everywhere that i go.

but the result is still "0" !!!

im sooo sorry sir nasir coz made u mad..

im so sorry..

=( im sad of myself.. y can't i did?

sir i really cant re-do this presentation..

im seriously down with myself..

i wish i can make u proud with presentation somedy.. =(

but how can i make it??
arghhHH!! STRESS!!!

alwayz thinking about dis..

alwayz remember wat u scold me in-front of others..

im i a LOSER?? hmpph =(

Selamat Menyambut Ramadan Al-Mubarak

riuhsepi dingin dinihari

kumamah kalimah mengharap redha Illahi

sepajang hari meletakkan zahiri dan batini

di atas waras iman dijelajahi

kujelajahi kegelisahan yang dahaga

letih meniti hari mengutuh peribadi

tangkas menepis serangan sendiri

musuh dan lawan mengharum suci

ketika siap berbuka

kemenangan pula dahagakan cabaran lain

tarawih dan witir menjelmakan insan fakir

khusyuk patuh tunduk ke langit

ramadan almubarak

semarak kasih Illahi tak kemarau

gemuruh iman menakluk cahaya pedoman

hari-hari melayari kehidupan.

huhu, pejam celik pejam celik da pun nk puase.. huaaa bestnye.

umo pn da makin tua.. ak mengharap ramadan kali ni lebih baek dari yg sblumnye..

msg for kak efah: epah jgn lupe blek umah k.. kitowng sentiase tunggu ko =D

solat..

hmpphh.. semakin hari owng smakin lupekan nye

knpe zaman skarang owng makin ramai lupe kan nye??
temasuklah owng2 dewasa..

blew ak da cam dgn mereka..

downg x penh nk pikir bab solat ni..

kadang2 ak sedey tgk downg..

bukn nk ckp diri ak perfect..

ak pn ade gak tinggal smyg..

tp blew ak ajak tu pergi la bsme...

ade yg ley ckp.. "perlu k?","ko pergi dlu ak laju"

ada yg da ajak tu senyum2 sengeh2, padahal solat da tinggal byk..

dlu owng nye bagus x tinggal solat.. skunk blew da ade kesenangan skit..

truz tinggal solat.. adoi x tau nk cakp ape ..

adakah ini pertunjuk kiamat ya Tuhanku??

knpe dgn umat islam zaman skrang..

mane tiang agama kowng??

kowng x rase bersalah k blew kowng da tinggal kan smbyg??

setruk2 ak pn.. blew ak x smyg ak akan rase resah gelisah..

blew ak kje kt 1 syarikat pemasangan..

seowng dari pada mereka tidak pernah memikirkn soal sembyg..

ada tu ada, tp bley lagi bermaen dengan soal agame..

pelik nye..

ape yg hnye ak dpt adalah berdiam diri dan berdoa mengunakan hati..

hmmppphh... pak cik ak sendiri pn smbyg, hanye memikir kan duit duit duit duit duit dan duit..

come on la guys, rezeki pn ko dpt dari Dye..

tp ko tetap x nk smbyg..

tu baru smbyg.. blum bace al-quran ag.. dan laen2..

Practical!! dalaman selame 2 hari..

starting of my practical in 22-24 July 2010 in department of ADMIN..

in the 1st day, im being the speechless person,

2nd be more aggressive for my work

3rd hahaa.. i be the glew2 one..

aiyo2.. my Department is so fucking busy!!..

does't hav time to relaxing my leg...

every 1 hours. i will go checking class by class..

quite tired.. but i love to walk mehhh..

cuci mata2.. BAHAHAHHAHAA..

making memo, make some lebeling, drafting table, dispatching, making a table by using excel and other.. huh!!

some of Department... is fucking sux!! arghh!!!

y cant u do ur own work mr. sham?
are u stupid or wat????

pls la dun ever curi2 tulang ni.. lu punya gaji HARAM ma.
lu lepak2 the lu dapat duit.. aiya, macam mana melayu mau naek..

kalo owng mcam lu ade lagi sma instedt..

mrs SHAM, boleh tolong pergi mampos?

special thx to my part of department..

my boss, puan hanifah =D

and the other, toy, kak suhailee, kak sue and Pn. nor!!

thx for teaching me.. =D
take care for ur work.. and thx for the experience..

peace!!